Have you ever put your whole heart and soul into a project – only to have it flop miserably? Totally my story this year with my garden! I can’t even begin to tell you how completely frustrated I’ve been with it! From bugs (miniature VULTURES!) and unexpected temperature fluctuations, to fertilization mishaps and everything in between! Every single time, I’ve felt a massive sucker-punch that has left me totally defeated and feeling like a complete idiot.
If you don’t know, I have a FaceBook group (Keep The Castle) where I’m supposed to know what I’m talking about with all things garden-related. But, not this year. One giant world-wide embarrassment wrapped up in a bunch of dead plants. Go, me! UGhhhh…
I typically start my garden planning about February each year. I go to great lengths to write and plan it all out on paper. Then, I order seeds, if needed, to have them ready to go. I get the cups/soil all prepped to plant indoors (Zone 5 where I am, is typically buried in snow in February). Then, I babysit the heck out of everything til Winter gets done throwing tantrums and Spring shows up.
I had such MAJOR expectations of a beautiful garden this year! I wanted to show people that, even if you’re dealing with a disability of some kind, it could still be done. I worked so hard all winter to get everything ready. I followed all the great gardening rules to the letter with the intention of creating an awesome garden tour that I could showcase on YouTube and build my channel (and, hopefully, grow my following there).
But, now the time is here to show everything, I’m really struggling because literally NOTHING has gone according to plan. I’ve restarted several seeds two or three times over the past few months – and some haven’t even sprouted yet. I’ve had to break down and buy starts, because some of my plants don’t have time enough to get mature before our growing season ends.
Which brings me to the whole “miracle” aspect of the name I’ve chosen for my gardens. I can honestly say I’ve tried everything – and it hasn’t been enough to make it work the way I had my heart set on. There has been a ridiculous amount of blood, sweat, and tears (oh, yeah! I totally broke down way too much over it!) this year.
But, I also know that, when I’m at my darkest moments, I can turn it over to God and let Him pick up where I’ve completely flopped. I’m 100% a firm believer in miracles. I KNOW that this garden isn’t going produce what, and the way, I had planned. But, maybe, just maybe, it’s all going to plan after all. Maybe it’s to show the world that miracles can, and do, still happen. That God is very much aware of our struggles and failures and WANTS to give us a hand when can’t do something on our own.
My desire for a successful garden has not changed one bit. I’ll keep working on it. I’ll keep playing in the dirt, plucking weeds, and crossing my fingers for SOMETHING good to come out of it. I whole-heartedly believe that it will. It will be completely different than what I first envisioned for the space. No question about that. But, I have no doubts that miracles truly are in store for it.
I invite you to come along for the ride. Please follow my garden adventures this year here on this blog and on my channel. I have no idea how it will go. I’m also not going to try and convince you to believe in miracles, too. That’s totally your choice. But, either way, please join me. Whether it’s completely successful or not, I really believe it’s going to be a beautiful experience for both of us!